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Photo from Ms Claire Wang's Facebook page

Mother of 4-year-old little girl hopes her tragedy can be a lesson for the greater good and call attention to issues in society

As Taiwan grieved and amidst some vigilante justice for the 4-year-old girl who was decapitated by a deranged male adult, Ms Claire Wang, the mother of the young victim has spoken out against any retributive violence with much grace and compassion

Speaking to Taiwanese reporters at the police station on Monday (date of the incident), Ms Wang said "I believe the suspects in these kinds of random killings lose their minds at that moment,"

"This is not a problem that can be solved by passing a law," she said. "I hope we can address the problem from its root, from the perspective of family and education, so that there will no longer be people like him (the perpetrator) in our society."

Although Ms Wang has been advised to close her blog and Facebook page, she felt that it is necessary to turn the tragedy of her daughter’s death into a lesson for the greater good, that her daughter's death can leave something behind, stir up some discussion, remind people of the importance of love, and call attention to the many issues in society.

In her Facebook post, Ms Wang wrote, "The road ahead of us is still very long. We have the siblings of Little Lightbulb who need us. To have our blessings negated is the last thing we hope to happen, especially since we could never be able to return such brimming amounts of your blessings. I really hope that we can redirect all this kindness to other parts of the society, so that the light from Little Lightbulb can shine on. I believe that this is the purpose of her short stay on Earth."

"And maybe when this light of love has been shared and spread to every corner of the society, when everyone is finally able to attain contentment, we will finally be able to prevent such tragedies from happening again."

Note that the mother has insisted that she only represents herself; currently has no religious beliefs; has not join nor support any political parties in Taiwan; does not support death penalty, but neither supports abolishing the penalty; she has not start any movement nor fund raising or any other activities.

Below is the translation of the mother's posts made on her personal Facebook page.

In my growing years, I have always felt blessed in my life for I have been constantly surrounded by people with good intentions, love, and care. I am a contented person because of these people, who were there in my workplace, schools, family, and social circle. Because of them, I have always believed that this world is a beautiful place… and perhaps, so did Little Lightbulb; she had always maintained that this is a beautiful world.

Alas, the world may not be so beautiful to some other people in this society. There are people out there who are lacking in so many ways…emotionally as well as materialistically.

All that you lack emotionally, only time can recall the missing jigsaw piece that makes the world complete again.

As for the material needs that are lacking in this world, I earnestly request that you pass on your blessings for Little Lightbulb; help spread her love for this world that she knows to other parts of the society. Just as we have expressed to the media and on Facebook, we have received and accepted your well-wishes. It is now our wish that you can channel your material care and concern to the other organisations that need them more than we do.

Nonetheless, Little Lightbulb’s memorial has been brimming with so much affection from the multitudes of you out there, so much so that we have yet been able to pass on the love. Your tumultuous blessings are beyond what David and I could have ever imagined. We are so overwhelmed with your kindness that we are apprehensive that it will negate our future blessings.

The road ahead of us is still very long. We have the siblings of Little Lightbulb who need us. To have our blessings negated is the last thing we hope to happen, especially since we could never be able to return such brimming amounts of your blessings. I really hope that we can redirect all this kindness to other parts of the society, so that the light from Little Lightbulb can shine on. I believe that this is the purpose of her short stay on Earth.

And maybe when this light of love has been shared and spread to every corner of the society, when everyone is finally able to attain contentment, we will finally be able to prevent such tragedies from happening again.

In Ms Wang's earlier post, she expressed her sadness and longing for Little Lightbulb but 

Before my eyes, what’s left of Little Lightbulb is a mangled mess and there is nothing I can do to change that. With the sound of her body falling to the ground, I knew she was finally liberated from her sufferings, as I whispered to her lifeless body, “My precious one, it is over.”

There was so much press about this unfortunate event that I only had the energy to peruse the video and text recordings from the press conference my family shared with me. I am thankful that the dedicated journalists have replicated my statement in full.

And as I am writing this note, I cannot cry. And I do not know the reason.

I really miss her.

I finally collapsed after I accompanied her three siblings to the room they used to share as four. Little Lightbulb’s big sister cried as she spoke. We talked for a long time. The lyrics for the song “almost like a dream” rang in my mind throughout the night. Oh, how I wish I could wake up tomorrow and realise that this is only but a dream. And that Little Lightbulb would come running to me affectionately.

I really miss her.

People who know me well would understand that I am a person who always strives to put my best foot forward, doing the best I could with a clear conscience. I am rational, I am optimistic, and I am strong-willed. Henceforth, I did my best on my own to restrain the criminal. I honestly tried with all my might. But try as I might, what’s lost cannot be salvaged. I wish I could salvage something, perhaps some love, something that makes her short-lived life worthwhile.

I really miss her.

Do me a favour, everyone, give your loved ones a good hug, with all your might, tightly, deeply, and tell them you love them.

For it may have all been predestined.

Our entire family was out on that fateful Saturday morning for the carnival at her big sister’s school. Little Lightbulb saw her ex-kindergarten teachers and classmates that morning. David had wanted to take her big sister with him to pay respects at the ancestral grave in Hualien later in the day, but the night before, he decided to include Little Lightbulb as well and she got to meet the relatives that she had not seen in a while. With only three hours for that afternoon, we planned to go home to rest. But we made it to the coed school instead, where Little Lightbulb got to play with her friends, and many nice pictures were taken. That day, Little Bulb met so many relatives and friends. Maybe that was the last goodbye God had arranged for her.

I really miss her.

Today (the day of the incident), Little Lightbulb woke up earlier than usual and gleefully told me she was able to say goodbye to her big sister before she left for school. After her sister left, we spent precious time together, just the two of us. Little Lightbulb rode her little bike out to run errands with me. When we got home she sat herself on the couch by the big window, looking out as she held a piece of fruit in her little hand. I asked her what she is doing, and she replied, “I’m munching my fruit while viewing the scenery outside! What a lovely view, this world is so beautiful.” Perhaps, this is the last reminiscence of Little Bulb during her brief stop in this world.

Regrettably, we can never have a lively discussion about the birthday cake that we should order or the guest list to prepare for our upcoming birthdays the next month. Our birthdays were only 3 days apart from each other.

I really miss her.

But I am thankful that I got to tell her I love her last night, when I held her in my arms soothing her to sleep. And I am thankful that we took a trip overseas earlier this year to Disneyland, a place she always wanted to go, and that she got to take a ride on a plane.

Perhaps it is in God’s perfect planning to give me Little Seal alongside Little Lightbulb in my third pregnancy, the Little Seal who is the cookie cutter of Little Bulb, so that she can take the place of Little Bulb and be with me from now onwards.

But I really do miss Little Lightbulb.

In a cruel twist of fate, I did not make it on national TV for having four children in this era of low birth rates. Instead I went on national TV for losing one of my children. Life can be so filled with ironies, isn’t that so?

I am truly grateful to everyone’s care and concern. Thank you for all the resources that you offered, but do give us time to gather ourselves. Please do not attempt to reach David or myself by phone. We saw your messages. And if the need arises, we will not hesitate to seek help. We are fully aware that the best moment to ask for assistance is precisely when we need help.

For the moment, all I ask for is a swift conclusion to the autopsy, so that Little Lightbulb can be back to me in one piece again. I would then be able to hug her and talk to her again once more. My precious one, I truly miss you so dearly!

The original facebook post has since been deleted so below is the full text in Chinese

當下,血肉模糊,我知道我已經挽回不了。咚...的一聲,我知道他解脫了,我跟她說『寶貝,結束了』

除了家人給我看的記者會影音檔和文字檔之外,其他新聞我還無力消化。謝謝媒體工作者完整了呈現了記者會裡我的發言。

當下,不知道為什麼,是哭不出來的,直到做完筆錄。

我真的好想她。

直到陪三個孩子們踏進他們四個一起睡的房間,突然,我就崩潰了,姐姐也終於在此時開始放聲哭泣,我們聊了好久好久,我一整晚,腦海終究只有『如夢一場』我多麼希望明天醒來,發現這是一場夢,小燈泡就跑來撒嬌。

我真的好想她。

認識我的人都應該瞭解我,我凡事盡心盡力,我凡事問心無愧,我理性,我樂觀、我也堅強,於此,我奮力的獨自的拉住犯罪者,我真的很盡力。

走都走了,我真的很希望能喚回些什麼,喚回些愛,喚回些什麼,讓她值得!

我真的好想她。

請大家幫我,好好抱抱你們身邊最愛的人。很用力的、緊緊的、深深的,抱抱他們,告訴他:『我愛你』

有時候,真的是命。

週六,早上姐姐學校園遊會,我們全家出動,小燈泡看到他之前的幼幼班老師、同學,那天下午David是要帶姐姐回花蓮掃墓的,前一晚,臨時決定帶小燈泡一起回去,小燈泡看到了好久不見的親戚們。那一天,我們下午只有三小時,原本想回家休息的,但我們去了共學,小燈泡跟他的朋友們玩的很開心,很多爸媽也幫我們拍了很棒的照片。那一天,小燈泡見到好多好多的人,或許就是上帝在安排他做最後的道別。

我真的好想她。

今早,平常晚起的小燈泡,在姐姐出門上學前起床,樂的跟我說他今天很早起,有跟姐姐說byebye。早上,難得的只有我們兩個的時光,騎了他愛的摩托車載他出門處理事情,回家,他拿著水果,坐在大窗邊的臥榻上,看著窗外,我問他:你在幹嘛?小燈泡說:『我在吃水果看風景呀!這裡的風景好美,這個世界好漂亮』或許,就是在做他最後的回顧。

只可惜,我們早上還在討論下個月生日要訂什麼蛋糕,要邀請誰一起慶祝。只可惜,差三天生日的我們,沒辦法一起慶生了。

我真的好想她。

還好,昨晚我抱著他跟她說我愛他,按摩著他直到入睡。還好,我們年初有出國旅行一趟,帶他去了想去的迪士尼,帶他坐了飛機。

或許,上帝硬是在我懷第三胎的時候,把小海豹也擠進來,讓我有個跟小燈泡這麼像的小海豹,是要讓日後小海豹能替小燈泡陪我。

我,真的很想小燈泡。

在這個少子的年代,我沒有因為我生了四個孩子上電視,卻因為我少了一個孩子上電視,好像,有那麼點諷刺?

謝謝大家的關心,我真的知道,謝謝大家提供的各種資源,我們需要時間消化、整理,謝謝大家,請不要打電話給我和David,你們的訊息我都有看到,我需要時,我絕對不會客氣,我知道這時候不靠你們,還要等什麼時候?

我現在只想要鑑定趕快結束,還給我小燈泡,讓她屍首合一,讓我抱抱他,好好跟她說話。我真的好想你,寶貝!